that it was July 8, 2004 and I was sitting alone in the dark of the movie theater not really watching Spiderman 2 and bawling my eyes out and rubbing my expanded middle as the knowledge that my first child would be born the next day washed over me.
July 9, 2004 5:47 pm all 6 pounds and 10 ounces of Jackson Cole Dilley joined the world and changed our lives forever. He was beautiful. Not at first, of course, with his bruised squished alien head; but he quickly became this little sweet creature with clear blue eyes and a heart shaped mouth. He was so pretty as a baby that dressed in blue from head to toe and carrying a blue blanket strangers would stop to remark about how pretty "she" was. He would lay in is little moses basket and coo like an angelic (disease-free) pigeon.
AND NOW MY BABY IS 4!!!!
Four years old just feels like such a big boy. I feel like the threshold of time has been crossed in a very poignant way and I find part of myself grieving for my son's baby/ toddlerhood. And with Finn crossing into toddlerhood from babyhood at the same time I long for time to slow down and reverse. When did my babies grow up? How did four years slip by me? And NO, it is NOT time for another baby. The night before his birthday I took my camera in his room and took a bunch of pictures of him. I wanted to capture his last moments as a 3 year old. I gave him a huge hug and a kiss and told my baby, "the next time I see you - you'll be four." I wanted to cry. He was thrilled.
Because his birthday was on the heels of our California vacation / Disneyland trip we ditched out on his birthday a little, but we do want to say a huge thanks to everyone who made his 4th of July/ Birthday/ Batman Barbeque such fun and also his wild Peter Piper Pizza extraveganza.
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I remember the day he was born, Wasn't just yesterday? He was the perfect little baby boy. He was VERY cute when he first came out!!
HAPPY 4 years Jackson
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